My mom’s death

On Sept. 11th at 9:37 p.m. my mother passed away.  I was alone with her when she took her last breath and after a valiant struggle to overcome her surgery, she just didn’t make it.  They found cancer, spread far and wide, when they opened her abdomen so it was only a matter of time, but we had hoped that she would survive the surgery and come home long enough to see her family, especially her great grandsons, Max and Gus.  But, it wasn’t to be.  Ariel did get to see her before she lost consciousness, and she told us all she loved us.  Her last words, said to me, were to “Keep smiling”.  Not a bad last message… and we’re trying.

I want to thank those of you who have sent me messages.  It does help!

A note from Arizona

If there’s anyone still out there reading this much neglected blog, I wanted to let you know that I still plan to get back here eventually.  When I got back to Vermont, I was trying to help Ariel and Ben get caught up with things at LACE, and of course, put in some good time with Max and Gus.  I have also been working on a proposal for a new book (and got thrown a few unexpected curve balls, so I’m having to go back to square one) and trying to hone in on my movie script.  As life happens, my mom went into the hospital a few days ago, and day before yesterday I got a call that she was going into emergency surgery.  I flew to Arizona immediately and she had her surgery yesterday.  The news isn’t good.  She has cancer and it has spread to where it is inoperable.  We’ll get more news today, but I believe I’ll be spending most of my time in Arizona doing hospice care for my mom over then coming months.  The news is sad, and losing my mother who loved me through so many trials and tribulations is not going to be easy… but, she is 83 years old and had a good life.  Being able to be here for her and for my dad is, indeed, a gift and I want to be here to honor them and all they’ve given me.  So, I hope anyone still checking this website will be patient with me.  I should have time to actually work on this site while I’m here and it will probably be a good refuge for me!  Thanks, Crystal

Jesse Kellerman interview

As I’m waiting for my sister and brother-in-law to load a canoe onto the car, I ran across this interview with Jesse Kellerman.  I actually had a whole section with Jonathan Kellerman, Jesse Kellerman and Warren’s diary entry on this lunch (I asked Jordan about it, but he didn’t respond to my inquiry). Of course, it’s not in the book because the editors cut it out.  And so it goes.  Anyway, here’s what Jesse wrote to me in an email.

JESSE KELLERMAN

10-11-04
by email

My father introduced me to the music.  Warren would send my dad free
CDs which I would then steal.

The primary appeal of Warren’s song-writing was always its
intelligence.  I have a somewhat odd sense of humor, and I felt a kind
of kindred spirit with whoever could rhyme “took it to Spokane” and
“naugahyde divan”.  It was the kind of writing I wanted to do.  It
didn’t give a damn, but it wasn’t anti-intellectual.  I think that’s
it, actually.  It was nice to hear someone who wasn’t ashamed of being
smart, but who didn’t sound like a pretentious prick.  I have several
friends who are enthusiasts of his work, all of whom fit that mold,
more or less: they like to read, they’re reasonably laid-back, they
appreciate high culture and low culture in equal measure.

One time, home from college, I asked my father to arrange a lunch.  He
said he’d make a call and next thing I knew what I had pictured as a
mild celebrity-worship session had been transformed into a father-son
bonding experience.

We all met at the King’s Road Cafe.  I’d be lying if I told you that I
remember the specifics of the conversation.  The impression I retain is
that he was a good dad, a fine and dry wit, and an overwhelming cool.
He radiated cool.  Cool because he had accomplished so much, but still
had the presence of mind to have a pleasant lunch.  He didn’t seem
particularly attention-seeking for a celebrity, which in LA is no small
feat.  Jordan, too, seemed like a very decent guy.  They both gave me
the impression that they found life quietly hilarious.  I liked that.

Later my father told me, “I think Jordan’s going to pursue a more
conventional career.  Warren said that Jordan took him aside at one
point, and ‘broke the news’ that he wasn’t going to be a musician.”  I
don’t know if that was true–I guess Jordan could confirm it or
not–but I used that bit of information as the germ for a story that I
wrote about a team of father-son serial bombers experiencing a crisis
when the son wants to go straight, get the white picket fence, etc.  It
ended up being the first story I ever published.

Anyhow, there’s that.  The only other contact we had was after I
learned he was dying.  I wrote him a letter.  Which, I think, is the
only fan letter I’ve ever written.

Boulder and Denver

Just a quick report on Boulder and Denver reading.  They were great.  The Denver reading at this amazing bookstore, Tattered Covers, was one of the best I’ve done.  Not my part, but the audience…  I think I was signing books for an hour after the reading, and everyone was just so receptive, responsive and interested.  For me, this Colorado trip is especially poignant… driving from Paonia where my sister lives over to Denver and back was a trip back to my Colorado roots.  I feel so connected to the mountains and rivers and countryside… it’s hard not to imagine ‘coming home’ to live at some point.  I’m sure that as long as Ariel and my grandsons are in Vermont, I’ll be there, too… but, it has really felt like coming home.

I’m going to try to put up some of the edited book stuff in the next day or two!

Santa Barbara, Miami & Long Island

Hi,

I’m off to Moab, Utah today for a signing at Arches Book Store tonight.  My sister and I will be driving through the blistering heat, but once we get into canyonland in Utah, it will be a beautiful drive.  I have no idea how many Zevon fans there might be in Moab, but we’ll be there in any case, and I hear the bookstore is wonderful.

The latest news is it looks like I’ll be joining the Antioch - Santa Barbara faculty.  The gig will be with their MFA Writing Program which will hopefully begin in conjunction with the June, 2008 Santa Barbara Writers Conference.  But, prior to that, I will be at the Antioch SB Undergrad Writers Workshop this Nov. 1st, 2nd and 3rd.  I think anyone can come to the keynote talks, for those who are in or near Santa Barbara.
The most exciting part is that I suggested they contact Kathi Kamen Goldmark & Sam Barry (of Rock Bottom Remainders fame… among other things) and Jorge Calderon because they want to have a songwriting component to their MFA program.   Kathi and Sam met with Michael Mulnix, President of Antioch SB last week, and he’s also spoken with Jorge and it looks like we’ll probably all be at the November Writers Workshop together!

Almost immediately following, Kathi, Sam and I will be heading for the Miami Book Fair - November 9 - 11, 2007.   I’m not sure what I’ll be doing there, but The Remainders will be playing and it should be fun.

Then, I’m supposed to be doing something on Long Island with Gary’s friend Joe Girani of WEHM Radio around November 17th.  I don’t know any of the specifics, but I’ll keep you posted.

Meanwhile, here’s a photo of Ariel at work in the cafe at LACE!

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Burlington Book Festival

On Sept. 15th, I’m going to be at the Burlington (Vermont) Book Festival.  I thought I’d put up the link because it looks like a really good festival.  Great writers like Joyce Carol Oats and Russell Banks will be there.  I feel pretty honored to be included!

http://www.burlingtonbookfestival.com/

Jackson, Ariel & Senator Leahy at LACE

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Colorado and Hilburn

Yesterday, my sister and I wandered around Aspen where we grew up, but where neither of us has spent any time for many years.  We drove by the house we built with our parents, up Red Mountain where they just keep constructing more mansions, past the Red Onion with its door nailed shut… we felt the stab of resentment toward the people who put Prada and fur stores where the old hardware store used to be, and the people who shop there… and we felt the heartbeat of time passing when we visited the old Aspen Grove cemetery where one of my sister’s friends took her own life at the age of sixteen, and one of my friends who died a few years ago of an overdose was buried.  It was a very emotional day… ending with an emotional reading at Town Center Bookseller in Basalt.  The reading was beautifully set up, but unfortunately, not too well attended.  Lynn Goldsmith (yes, the famous photographer whom I got to know during Woodstock 94) was there, and several friends of Hunter Thompson’s showed up, and maybe 12 others… and it was nice… I just felt badly for the bookstore who had ordered 100 books.  Ah well.

After the reading, my sister (Caren) and I drove through the canyons back to her home in Paonia.  This morning I had an interview with the librarian who is writing an article about the book because the reading here is going to be a benefit for the library.  Then, I went down and did a fabulous interview at the community radio station KVNF… maybe the nicest (and definitely the ‘greenist’) radio station I’ve been to yet (Joe Cocker was the benefactor).

Beyond that, I just can’t help sharing an email I got yesterday from Robert Hilburn.  I’ve read his reviews and articles on music since before Warren’s first Asylum album and have generally agreed with his opinions and always respected them.  So, I was humbled to get this from him and I can’t help myself from wanting to share it with you…

crystal…..just finished reading “I’ll sleep when I’m Dead” and want to tell you how thoroughly moved I was by your book and that’s from someone who reads music-related books constantly and almost always underimpressed by what i’ve read…and i’m not normally a fan of the interview-quotes style of writing because it often seems to wander in meaningless directions, but it worked perfectly in this case….your book digs so deeply into warren’s character and craft that it reminds the rest of us (both journalistgs and average fans) how little we really know about the person behind music that we love… again. congratulations on a simpy marvelous book…..robert hilburn, who watched warren from afar at the los angeles times for decades…

In Aspen

Hi,

Very briefly… better than nothing, perhaps?… I arrived in Denver yesterday afternoon where my sister met me and we drove over the passes, past Vail, through Glenwood Canyon and into Basalt (18 miles from Aspen) where we’re staying with friends.  We went to the bookstore where I’ll be reading tonight and it was great!  They have 100 books on hand and said they expect a big crowd.  I did a 7:30 a.m. radio show this morning and the local cable channel, PLUM TV, will be doing an interview before the reading and filming the reading.   I’m also scheduled on the morning news shows in Denver on August 15th.   Just when I thought it was all settling down!!!   More soon…

Apologies… and a letter

I have been just slammed… things at LACE are demanding and we can’t let up for an instant in these early months.  So, I apologize to all and promise that it will settle down and I will be putting some more diary entries, interviews and other assorted stuff up in the near future.

Meanwhile, I wanted to share this email I just got from Craig Northey of The Odds.

Dear Crystal,

I very much enjoyed the book. I don’t think we’ve ever actually met but
I was in the Odds and played with Warren in 91-92. As you might know
Warren was an important mentor for me at just the right time. I kept the
good luck gray T-shirts and for years I took the same birthday shirt in
my suitcase every time I went on the road. Soon it all became a bit
blurry and I started to forget. I am putting it back in now.

It was very strange reading the section where we were on tour. I
remembered his birthday and the tension and then the fun we had. Carl
was there. Warren was pissed off at us because he thought we tipped the
crowd off about his birthday. He growled at me on stage and I said,
“fuck Warren you’re in the goddamn Rock Encyclopedia. You and Zappa are
the only Z’s. Of course your fans are going to know its your birthday”.
He ended up apologizing later and we had a great time on the bus. He
used to snipe about how old he was. He’d say, “but watch this cunt
lappers!” and do one armed push-ups while the bus was moving. Surfer boy
still. I used to think, “man he’s old but indestructible”. When I read
that diary entry it ended by saying it was his 45th birthday. I’ve just
had my 45th birthday. That really brought everything home for me.

In the year before he was diagnosed we really reconnected and had some
great long conversations. We schemed and laughed and…well…the rest
is in the book. Anytime you’re near Vancouver…give us a call.

love

Craig Northey
(the Odds)

PS: I’ll be on the Craig Ferguson show in LA, Aug 21st playing bass for
Jeremy Fisher then the Viper Room the next night…I’ll tell
Jordan…maybe he’s around.

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